‘Your love is king’

I need physical strength to get through this mammoth race. My body is running on empty which is noticable. I feel dreadful! 😩

On a positive-Christmas is fast approaching, my favourite time of the year! There’s nobody who gets more excited about Christmas than me except my nephew! πŸ˜‚πŸŽ„

My sister hasn’t called me a self-eating cannibal for a while, she must be on an ASBO! πŸ‘πŸ½πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚



‘Long and winding road’


Today is the day I first met my son 31 years ago.

‘Mum meet your son, son meet your mum. She will be your mum for life. She will love, care and feed you until you become your own man. She will chastise when necessary but love you in abundance despite that. Your mum will always be there looking out for your wellbeing until the end of time. She is looking forward to another 31 years with you…’

Happy birthday son! I love you xx




‘Dancing Queen’

Lastly night I could not sleep. I was practically awake all night. Not an ounce of refreshed sleep.

I feel like I’m just ‘existing’ just ‘cruising’ along the tide. As much as I plan ahead, it feels like my feet are stuck in a concrete mixset. I’m tired, so very tired ALL the time. Being in this fatigued state in itself is exhausting. It is very hard to explain to anyone as most people have never experienced fatigue or more importantly, fatigue on this level. Picture a battery fully charged and then out of the blue, the life in the battery suddenly fades away. The gadget it once fuelled falls to one side, unaided with energy. That’s a description of me, all day, everyday and there’s nothing I can do about it…



‘Human Nature’

This morning at 6am on a weekend I awaken to a feeling of absolute fear! I really despise the ‘Bitch-Bastard’ churning my tummy in anticipation of the unknown.

I faced you before and I’ll do it again! What’s the matter are you bored?

The human mind is really powerful when it is supposed to be at rest it quietly regurgitates thoughts you had put to bed- well you think you did!

Oh how I love my nephew he is soooo funny! He reliably informed me that he is celebrating my birthday with me next year! Funny thing is, he made sure I kbow the deal and he ensured that I remember exactly how old I will be!!! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚πŸ‘πŸ½