❤️❤️🦋 ‘Better Man’ 🦋❤️❤️

By Westlife

‘I saw an angel, but they’ve hidden their wings
I know everyone’s got that special baby
Oh I, now I only see you in my dreams’

You never got to hear their new track. The words are so beautiful, meaningful and so apt, I can imagine you singing and playing the guitar to this track.

My ‘Clinic Dancing Partner’ you were one of a kind.

I don’t think I will ever meet another like you ☺️🥰🦋

🦋 ‘Why do I feel so sad?’ 🦋

By Alicia Keys

‘Why do I feel so sad?
Why does it feel so bad inside when I realise that you’ve got to be left behind?’
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference 😔


💕🦋 ‘I guess that’s why they call it the blues’ 🦋💕

By Elton John

‘Don’t wish it away
Don’t look at it like it’s forever
Between you and me I could honestly say
That things can only get better’

Today there was no need to search for a track. I opened my library of music and this song was the first in the shuffle…

It’s hard, so very hard. Life is never straightforward. There are so many twists and turns that it all gets so tiring and confusing at times. I know you would encourage me to stop, slow down and think about things. Breathe. Do what is right for me.

As we approach April I feel as if I am abandoning you as we leave March, a month of great significance. Whilst writing, I find myself lapsing in and out of daydreaming about moments, conversations and places we shared. The mind is a real power base of wonder. This life is truly remarkable.

Elton tells us to ‘live for each second’, he is right. However, in order to get through this life, we cannot go around it, over it, nor under it; instead we must go through it.

We must go through these moments they call the ‘Blues’.


💕💕💕💕🦋 ‘Tears always win’ 🦋💕💕💕💕

By Alicia Keys

‘These eyes put up a fight
But once again these tears always win’

All I wanted yesterday was for you to return 🦋

Cancer has a lot to answer for! Yesterday I went to war with Cancer! Not only did I despise Cancer for what it has done to so many of my loved ones, to me and to you, I despised it for taking you from me🦋I asked myself why, with disbelief being very much the order of the moment. I asked myself if you knew when you were leaving, if you went in peace, what your last thoughts were, were you afraid, it is a horrible moment to think about because I know you wanted so much to live. You wanted to be here for your family and friends. They wanted you here too, but not like this, not with Cancer doing what it does best!

Yet I cannot help myself, I have these painful thoughts and the tears just flow and they always win…🦋❤️

🦋🦋❤️ ‘If you let me’ ❤️🦋🦋

By Sinead Harnett

‘I don’t wanna be just a memory
And I don’t wanna feel your wings break free
Because without you I’m lost in the breeze
I gotta be strong now, I gotta show you how’

When you truly miss someone, their presence, their love, their wisdom, what do you do?

Lost, that’s how I feel but existing. At times I ask you why you had to leave? An impossible, ridiculous question as I know you had to go, it was your time. This still doesn’t stop my heart from being broken. I find myself thinking about how I will get through the summer and the rest of the year without you, how will I? Every ray of sunshine reminds me of you, every new leaf or flower in the garden, the scent of aftershave in the wind, similar vehicles – all reminders of you.

I know that I am still grieving, busy but grieving. When I feel as if I haven’t thought of you enough I get upset with myself. I do not know why my mind is thinking this way, perhaps this is part of the process.

I will always think of you, if you just let me…

🦋🦋 ‘With You’ 🦋🦋

From the ‘Ghost’ musical

‘Every place we ever walked and
Everywhere we talked, I miss you
You never leave my mind
So much of you is left behind’

Yesterday was so bittersweet. The beauty of nature at work together with the hustle and bustle of the city reminded me of you so much.

You knew and appreciated the importance of practicing mindfulness, in fact you inspired me to make some very important decisions in my life. Your last concern for balancing my wellbeing was to warn me not to become overloaded with anything. Be careful not to let anything or anyone overwhelm you. When I feel my limit approaching, I stop and breathe, remembering your advice. I am forever conscious that no matter how busy we are in our lives, the world does not stop turning when we are gone. So how important is our ‘busyness’ in the grand scheme of things? The world does not stop for anything or anyone. With or without you, it will continue to thrive.

The beauty of you, all of you, the wisdom of you, I am forever with you…❤️🦋

🦋🦋 ‘Human’ 🦋🦋

By Christina Perri

‘But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah

Do we recognise this? That we are only human?

Being human means that we are subjected to feelings, moments of feeling hurt, experience of pain. We hurt-we cry, we feel-we love, we feel pain-we express it in the way we are naturally constructed.

We are only human…


🥰🦋 ‘So Amazing’ 🦋🥰

By Luther Vandross

‘It’s so amazing to be loved
I’d follow you to the moon in the sky above

I have played this track repeatedly over the years in many different formats, going right back to vinyl.

This morning I did not need to think twice, this incredible song was the order of the day. As I reflect on how fortunate life has been for me, I remember all the lovely individuals I have loved and lost. Not necessarily through death but circumstances, some in my control, some outside of it. Love is not something we can quantify or even explain at times but you know when you are in the realms of love. You feel it, breathe it, live it and more importantly, you express it. It is a beautiful feeling to be able to give love and have it reciprocated, albeit in many forms. Very often we think of love as only being identified verbally as ‘I love you’. We couldn’t be more further from the truth. Words can be empty, carry no weight but yet can pacify us hearing this sentence. Love can appear as caring, sharing, being present, supporting and so on. If another truly cares enough to know or do any of the above, this is their expression of love. We don’t need to over complicate things but as human beings we tend to go to the default of complexity.

Despite some desperately low moments in the last few months, I still choose and will forever choose love. Love truly is amazing… 🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋

❤️❤️🦋 ‘Honesty’ 🦋❤️❤️

By Pink Sweat$

 “What if I dive deep?
Will you come in after me?
Would you share your flaws with me? Let me know.”
I told her, “Thinking is all wrong
Love will happen when it wants
I know it hurts sometimes, but don’t let it go.”

This beautiful track is so simple and pure in construction yet deep in meaning & emotion.

I miss you so but I know you’re living on in everything positive in life. The encounters I have been experiencing lately are no coincidence, your influence is present. Sometimes it is not immediately obvious but at the end of a long day when I sit quietly to reflect, it all starts to become abundantly clear. One of my beloveds said that I had sown good seeds a while ago so now the harvest is ready to reap with more to come… I believe this too as anything I do, I can honestly say that I do it because I care, because I love, because I want to share. I believe that you are helping me to cultivate this harvest, you came into my life for a short time, for a reason and for only a season. It hurts now that you are gone but the memories of your wisdom is both encouraging & soothing when these moments dip low.

This track is restful, peaceful, you, honest, strumming included ❤️🦋❤️

💕💕🦋🦋 ‘What do I do?’ 🦋🦋💕💕

By Ed Sheeran

‘Life is more than fitting into your jeans.

Love can change the world in a moment but what do I know’

What do I know? What do we really know? Do you know?

Life is a collaboration of highs and lows. Some of our journey is self directed with some of it occurring through chance. Some would say life is directed by a higher being depending on their faith. Considering that man has the wonderful ability of free will, why don’t we choose love every time? Why do we often choose hate and destruction to destroy people, lives and places? This is incredibly sad. If we spent more of our precious lives building each other up, loving, sharing and caring more could you imagine just how powerful the human race would become. When it comes down to it, we are all one, the same as each other with a life and a purpose, yet we don’t always choose love. Fascinating.

Choose love to change the world, choose love to live amongst others, choose love wisely but choose love…🥰❤️💕✨🦋