☺️☺️🦋 ‘What do I know’ 🦋☺️☺️

By Ed Sheeran

‘We could change this whole world with a piano
Add a bass, some guitar, grab a beat and away we go
I’m just a boy with a one-man show
No university, no degree, but lord knows
Everybody’s talking ’bout exponential growth
And the stock market crashing in their portfolios
While I’ll be sitting here with a song that I wrote
Sing, love could change the world in a moment
But what do I know?
Love can change the world in a moment
But what do I know?
Love can change the world in a moment‘

I love this upbeat track! 🥰

It speaks volumes, truth, reality and crosses paths in our lives. So many paths. Love can truly change our position in life much like our driving ambition to accomplish our goals. The difference is love, true love does not require an investment in education, money or assets. Love requires an investment of truth and a shared journey. Nothing else. It’s that simple but as I always say, as human beings we over complicate matters. Love comes from within us, deep within our very being. We don’t pay for it, it is free but yet we hesitate to express the same freeness, freely. Why? ‘Life is more than fitting in your jeans 👖 as Ed quite rightly sings.

Live, love and laugh whenever you can because ‘love can change the world in a moment’…🦋💗🦋

🎸🦋 ‘Hey Jude’ 🦋🎸

By The Beatles (Guitarist version)

‘Hey Jude, don’t make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey Jude, don’t be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better‘

I hope you have reunited with your childhood sweetheart in the next world

Your love 💗

🥰❤️🦋

☺️🦋 ‘Chasing pavements’ 🦋☺️

By Adele

‘Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere‘

I did not leave it there, I told you in writing. You read it and then quickly called because you needed to ‘hear it’ said out loud. It needed validation.

I do not regret saying it. It was true and needed to be said. It was that ‘elephant in the room’ until released. Deep down you wanted to be loved, we all need to be loved, you knew you were loved by me and special people in your life. You needed to hear it.

I am glad I did not continue to chase pavements…rest in peace lovely ☺️🦋

🦋 ‘I miss you so much’🦋

No track.

Cancer is the loneliest existence I have ever experienced. In life I have faced many obstacles on my own but there is something very different about this journey. This journey is brutally honest with no room for sugar coating. Well, not unless you offer me a lovely jam doughnut! 😂

My head beats, my body acts up in retaliation. Decisions lie in wait. I miss my ‘clinic dancing partner’ every single day, still finding it hard to process that he once lived and is no longer here because of Cancer. 😔🦋

But I live in faith that all will be well, he is a Guardian Angel…

🦋❤️🦋

☺️ ‘Diary of a Nettie’☺️

No track…

Life really is like a box of chocolates as quoted in the movie, Forest Gump. Although we do not know what is inside each chocolate unless we review the chocolate descriptions inside the box, we still go forward and take a chance. We do not evaluate and re-evaluate for too long before putting the chocolate out of it’s misery! 😂 😋 🍫

If only we could see inside the chocolate without needing to review the descriptions. If only we could exist as human beings without needing to constantly review and evaluate our existence. If only life really was as simple as choosing our favourite chocolate out of a box.

What would you choose?

🎸🥰🦋 ‘Inside your head’ 🦋🥰🎸

By Nia Andrews

‘You walk the line and draw your space the world can be unkind a never-ending January rain

I can get inside your head
When everyone else is just giving you promises
And I can be your place to go
A summer holiday just like the ones we used to know

I can get inside your head
I can get inside your head

You thought you had a braver braver skin
That funny tale to self you find has grown so paper thin‘

For the last week or so my diary has been written without the track being played at the time. It hasn’t worked well. This morning I reverted back and everything came to life in my earphones, you, life, self-expression. It all returned.

This track is really deep, soulful, the guitar playing sultry sounds in the background. The truth is, unless we are operating deep inside each other’s minds we exist in a superficial bubble. To know ourselves, to truly know and begin to understand one another, we need to get inside each other’s minds. From here we can build on the multiple layers required for deep, meaningful relationships. Inside the ‘mind’ of this beautiful track I can feel your presence, I can hear and visualise you playing your beloved guitar. You found it very easy to get inside the minds of people you connected with. There was no trickery, just simple use of the human ability to apply the law of attraction on a deeper level. That thing called psychology.

I will never forget you. You touched my life in a way that makes forgetting you impossible ☺️🎸🦋❤️

You are deep ‘inside my head’ 🥰

🦋🦋🦋 ‘Lay me down’ 🦋🦋🦋

By Sam Smith

‘You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling’s overwhelming, it’s much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you’re alright
I’ll take care of you’

I had an enjoyable morning/afternoon but everything reminded me of you.

A change of scenery, space and company but everything still reminded me of you. I visualised a much younger version of you. The setting in a Harry Potter style school was such. Cancer has much to answer for!

When is this story going to end? When will the old and the new stories stop playing out in my mind?

When will I lay next to you? You…

🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

☺️🦋 ‘Que sera sera’ 🦋☺️

By Doris Day

‘Que será, será
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours to see
Que será, será
What will be, will be
Que será, será

And so the story goes…

The future truly is not ours to foresee but to live as long as we have breath in our lungs. I am a firm believer in the philosophy, ‘we are who we are’ and ‘it is what it is’. Nothing will ever change my mindset on this way of thinking. The glass is not half full nor half empty, it is half full of water and half full of air- get real! We can dress it up, tear it down, dance around around it or decide to bury our heads in the sand but it will always be so. I am a realist.

This is the diary of a realist, ‘que sera sera’…🦋🥰🦋

🦋🦋 ‘We won’t move’ 🦋🦋

By Arlissa

‘Let’s go step by step
And brick by brick
I’ll carry the weight
For you
When I’m gone, don’t stop
We can stand here all day
We won’t move
No, not at all’

This is for the warrior in you!

I recall your stories of you not being afraid to challenge people and/or in situations that I would never be brave enough to undertake. I saw you in action on my behalf when I would choose to let it go – you would not! This track is about your incredible bravery and your continuous fight against injustice. Who on earth visits another country and decides to challenge their norm? Only you 😂☺️ I wish I was brave like you, I really do. You had that gallant stature and outlook in life.

You had that ‘we won’t move’ attitude deeply embedded in you. You were simply, you and I miss you so much ❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋

❤️🦋 ‘Yesterday once more 🦋❤️

By Carpenters

‘When I was young I’d listen to the radio
Waitin’ for my favorite songs
When they played I’d sing along, it made me smile

Those were such happy times and not so long ago
How I wondered where they’d gone
But they’re back again just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well’

Yesterday was D-Day. Surgery is imminent.

As I sat in the Liver Cancer clinic I thought of my ‘clinic dancing partner’. He crossed my mind nearly every second. I reimagined where we sat, where we laughed, walked and talked. I imagined his huge personality brightening up everyone’s experience. For some he would be described as an ‘Earth Angel’. He had a purpose on this earth albeit his time was sadly shortened. I tried to imagine the advice he would give me regarding the acceptance of surgery. In a way I am relieved that this opportunity did not come around when he was still with us. It would have seemed like a blow to him. I would never want him to experience this feeling– everything happens for a reason. Timing is key.

Yesterday was once more..🦋❤️