πŸ¦‹β€οΈπŸ¦‹ I love me some him πŸ¦‹β€οΈπŸ¦‹

By Toni Braxton

I’m not going to dress it up and put bells on it, this day is hard!

It feels like I’m leaving you behind as you left this earth in 2019. Going into a new year, a new decade feels like I’m abandoning you. I know this is not so but it’s the strangest feeling. I recall our conversation on NYE 2018. It is as though it just happened.

You must be making so many others feel good, making them laugh and entertaining them with your beautiful voice & guitar. It must be a real party today.πŸ¦‹πŸ₯°

We miss you πŸ˜˜πŸ˜”β€οΈ

🌲πŸ₯°πŸ¦‹Christmas Day 2019πŸ¦‹πŸ₯°πŸŒ²

This time last year you were still with us. Taking in the beauty of your family and friends.

I remember receiving your call around 7pm as you were in extreme pain and didn’t know what to do. We talked for a while and we managed to calm your fears. We spoke again at midnight. These conversations still play over and over in my mind. Nobody wanted you to leave this earth, I am thankful that it didn’t happen on Christmas Day.

Whilst we celebrate this festive season you are never far from my mind. I remember the selfless support you continued to do even as you lay in your bed during this season. You continued to encourage others to support others. I wish a bit more love and care such as this existed in what has become a very toxic environment. You wouldn’t be happy seeing this, I just know it.

Make everyone smile in your other life according to Buddhism.

Love always

πŸŒ²πŸ¦‹β€οΈπŸŽΈπŸŽ

πŸ₯° Memories πŸ₯°

I was about to quote Zhane’s ‘Love me today’ track but I realised that I never had hateful moments with you.

There may have been moments of frustration but never hate. I miss you so much. By meeting you I learned so much. Human beings are complex creatures. You taught me much without saying a word. A man of wisdom, a past and a limited future but not without respectful love and care for humanity. A beautiful soul…❀️

This Christmas feels so flat, I remember each moment this time last year. I miss your energy so much. I also know you’ve been pulling stunts on me! πŸ˜‚ let’s leave this for another time!

❀️

πŸ¦‹Dangerously in LoveπŸ¦‹

By Beyonce

‘I am in love with you (I’m in love)
You set me free (oh)
I can’t do this thing called life without you here with me (do this thing)
‘Cause I’m dangerously in love with you (in love with you)
I’ll never leave

This track is going over and over in my mind. I was listening to it yesterday and so many thoughts of you came to me.

Why was our time so short? Why did you have to leave this earth, I miss you so. It’s really painful πŸ˜”

Every time I think I’m putting my best foot forward I take two steps back. How can a soul as deep as yours just leave? There will never be another like you. That ability to treasure your fellow human beings is a very rare quality. It wasn’t just your belief system, it was something deep within you. Everyone loved being in your company, your conversation, your presence. It took me a while but I had no idea that I had fallen for you until I was apart from you one afternoon. I remember writing it in text and you immediately rang me to encourage me to say it out loud. I am so glad I expressed myself. If I hadn’t it would be even more painful now. You tried on more than one occasion to get me to really open up but I wouldn’t, the pain would be too much. I pulled away from this. πŸ˜”

‘I am in love with you, you set me free, I can’t do this thing called life without you here with me’ πŸ¦‹πŸ’•

πŸ’•πŸ’• Just Be πŸ’•πŸ’•

Just be…

Be yourself, be true, be real, be you.

You do not need to please anyone but yourself BUT during this action be sure that it is not spiteful, selfish or harmful. It is important to take care of ‘you’ so do so on a daily basis. You will notice that if you do not, very few will come to your rescue to ensure that you do.

Just be happy, live, laugh, love, share, embrace, learn, enhance, trust, try and care. If you apply all of these things each moment will be enriched. If we do the opposite of this you will experience the fallout, unhappy, live to die, frown, dismantle, mistrust, non active and complacent with little care or thought for yourself and others.

Live your life

In moments.

Just be…

πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

πŸ₯°πŸ¦‹ Die a happy man πŸ¦‹πŸ₯°

By Thomas Rhett

‘And I know that I can’t ever tell you enough
That all I need in this life is your crazy love
If I never get to see the Northern lights
Or if I never get to see the Eiffel Tower at night
Oh if all I got is your hand in my hand
Baby I could die a happy man

Sometimes love is really all you need. The places, the material things and wealth are really not that important. I’ve never been that person to strive for these things.

You were more than content with whatever you already had in your life, your life experience and faith taught you this. As I watched how you lived in this existence I was in awe of you. You literally gave it all up to be you, a simple life with no complexities of attachments. It takes a special kind of person to embrace and remain faithful to this discipline.

You didn’t want to die, I certainly didn’t want you to go but you died a happy man.

πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

πŸ¦‹πŸ¦‹πŸ¦‹ SpecialπŸ¦‹πŸ¦‹πŸ¦‹

Yesterday I realised exactly how special you are.

Sometimes we can go through life and take for granted the qualities that we experience in people. It is not until they leave this earth that you come to truly appreciate what they mean to you. I genuinely think I appreciated you but yesterday this was taken to another level. We all have flaws, nobody is perfect and neither should we profess to be, but there is something fundamentally unique about you which set you apart from other men.

Yesterday taught me this, it really did.

You are and will always be special to me.

πŸ¦‹β€οΈπŸ’•

❀️❀️ Deja Vu β€οΈβ€οΈ

By Teena Marie

I miss the very essence of you every day.

You were in a unique league of your own like no other. Definitely one of life’s rare beings who has probably visited this place called Earth more than once.

Call it Deja Vu…β€οΈπŸ¦‹β€οΈ

‘I’m young and I’m old
I’m rich and I’m poor
I feel like I’ve been on this earth many times before
Once I was a white Gazelle
On horse back riding free
Searching in the darkness for a piece of me
I can feel this for sure
I’ve been here before
I can fell this for sure for sure
I’ve been here before
I used to be a queen you know
In a island by the sea
With rainbow coloured people
Happy as can be
Never had a problem
There never was a care
And Love was ever flowing and it’s feeling shared’