🥺 Loss

Last week we said goodbye to a lovely person I know through social media. He passed away from Cancer. He was the funniest guy with punchy limericks which brightened up the day ☺️ May he rest in peace and his family be comforted at this time.

I remember feeling anxious about meeting new people in the world of Cancer and getting close to them. However, I flipped the coin and said to myself ‘how would you like people to do the same to you?’ As a result of getting to know a fantastic group of people from various backgrounds my life feels enriched. Most probably I would never have met my new friends had it not been for Cancer (sadly). Individually I have learned a lot from them – how to be open, love and live your truth. How to be friends with no agenda. How to let go of toxic behaviour and narcissistic tendencies which is rampant in every corner of the earth!

Rest in peace Mr Limerick, you supported so many of us, we will miss you 😘

🥰 Promise Me ðŸ¥°

By Beverley Craven

‘Just promise me you’ll wait for me
‘Cause I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon

I heard this playing on the radio last night and you came to my mind.

There are so many reminders of you, tv shows that are literally playing out large bits of our journey. It’s really weird as I don’t get upset, I actually find it comforting. The reminders are both treasured memories and bittersweet moments. The story line of Jean & Daniel in Eastenders and Jenny in Cold Feet is outstanding! The way the writers and actors have portrayed a journey of living with Cancer is not from a typical angle. They show how life is lived, love is conveyed, sex is discussed/enjoyed and lives devastated when a friend is lost to Cancer, especially when you have shared a journey together.

As we approach the first anniversary of losing you I think of you more and wonder why you had to go.

All I ask is that you wait for me…the story continues 😔❤️🎸🦋

🥰 Beautiful People ðŸ¥°

I have come to know so many beautiful people since my cancer diagnosis in 2017. They are with me in mind, body and in spirit. I treasure these individuals as their hearts exude nothing but peace and love. That is all we need in this life, anything short of this is not for my journey.

Some of these beautiful souls have sadly left this earth but each and every one of them left me with a better understanding of life and who I am in the grand scheme of things. One in particular stays with me every minute of the day 🥰🦋 🎸their presence is often signalled in some way. This can be through a song, a guitar being played or a bright twinkly light that was never present before he died.

They say we have guardian angels looking after us, 🦋he is the main one. I see it, feel it and he makes me know it. I had a feeling that our connection would be close but not this close into the after life. 🥰🦋

They are all forever missed, loved forever but will remain forever in my heart ❤️🦋🥰

🦋 Next Lifetime ðŸ¦‹

By Erykah Badu

‘First time that I saw you boy

It was a warm and sunny day
All I know is I wanted you
I really hoped you looked my way
When you smiled at me
So warm and sweet
I could not stay
You make me feel like a itty-bitty girl
What do you do to me

My heart breaks all over again. Not for fear of 2020, I am looking forward to this new decade but for the pain I still feel in losing you.

I just don’t understand how Cancer can take away such a huge character, a lover of life itself and the surrounding nature, a giver not a taker, a wonderful soul.

Our reason for a season may be over in this lifetime but we will meet again one day on the other side. Just make sure you have your guitar in tow 🥰🦋❤️