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Cancer is a Dancing Queen 2021 ©
By Alicia Keys
‘Right there, in the middle of a conversation
Wasn’t anything special you said, it was just there
Right then, I didn’t have time, even to overthink it
I looked at you and all of a sudden I was all in it’s like my knees are all weak and the butterflies,
They were dancing, taking all of my air
From that moment on it was very clear
That’s when I knew I fell in love, that’s when I knew you were the one
That’s when I knew you stole my heart away from me
That’s when I knew that I was sunk, that was the moment that I knew I was in love
That’s when I knew, that’s when I knew…’
We met on the 4th July. I will never forget. I still miss you every day. Your kindness, laughter, fun and curiosity of life. Cancer took you away physically from this earth in 2019 but you will remain in my heart and mind forever 🦋💕
My Clinic Dancing Partner, I hope you can hear me, see me and walk with me… 🦋💕🎸
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Tonight after catching up with a beautiful friend I realised that I have not really expressed how painful my journey with cancer has been.
As I tried my best to comfort them over the last few days without being overbearing, I felt every ounce of pain they felt. They have the same cancer as I do. Pre diagnosis and pre surgery that pain was almost indescribable!!! I recall collapsing to the floor at home one Saturday evening and begging my adult children for help. They tried to help me but I could not stand up. I refused an ambulance so we traveled by car. This cycle repeated on so many occasions with multiple trips to A&E with no diagnosis. On one occasion I remember sitting on the dirty floor crying and saying I was going to die. I actually felt like my time was up. On another occasion I literally tried to climb the hospital wall – I was in excruciating pain. I saw the look on the doctors face when he pulled the curtain and saw the look on my face.
The sad part is that I didn’t feel believed because they had given me the maximum IV dose of Morphine. They didn’t know it was Neuroendocrine Cancer at this stage, the diagnosis came nearly a year later. Pain-settle-repeat, so the story recycled…
Tonight as my friend is in pain I feel so bad for them as I know how intense that pain can be. I know that I didn’t want to speak to anyone when the pain hit, everyone was my ‘enemy’. I used to will everyone to stop talking as I felt their voice reverberate through the pain.
Thank goodness for the NHS, thank goodness for the surgeons and the nurses.
Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
‘Landslide’ by Robyn Sherwell
‘Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin’ ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?’
1st March 2019 you were laid to rest, the same day you entered this world on St David’s day.
The beauty of Daffodils reminds me of your special day as they appear naturally in this season. I cannot forget you, I don’t want to forget you. Spring reminds me of you. My favourite season.
Forever missed, forever loved. 💕
Two years since you have been gone. I look at your photo every day. My screensaver is my constant.
I often wonder where you are, what you can see, what you feel, what you think. Sometimes I get upset with you for dying. I know this is unfair but I have no other way to process it. Sometimes I laugh with you as I flick through the memories in videos and photos but then I want more. The cruelty of a full stop on 12th February 2019 makes this a reality. New videos can never be created, new photos can never be taken and you will never be able to be with me again, not in the physical sense. When I see the Amazon Prime advert with the track ‘How long has this been going on?’ by Players it reminds me of you – I cry. The guitar strumming forces me to look at your photo in the room and I can visualise you playing your guitar to this track. You were an excellent guitarist, so incredibly talented. I love the song which brings me some comfort but sadness.
I know you would have so much to be proud of, for this I can smile.
I will always miss you every day, tomorrow and forever…🥰🦋💕