‘Right there, in the middle of a conversation Wasn’t anything special you said, it was just there Right then, I didn’t have time, even to overthink it I looked at you and all of a sudden I was all in it’s like my knees are all weak and the butterflies, They were dancing, taking all of my air From that moment on it was very clear
That’s when I knew I fell in love, that’s when I knew you were the one That’s when I knew you stole my heart away from me That’s when I knew that I was sunk, that was the moment that I knew I was in love That’s when I knew, that’s when I knew…’
We met on the 4th July. I will never forget. I still miss you every day. Your kindness, laughter, fun and curiosity of life. Cancer took you away physically from this earth in 2019 but you will remain in my heart and mind forever 🦋💕
My Clinic Dancing Partner, I hope you can hear me, see me and walk with me… 🦋💕🎸
Life really is like a box of chocolates as quoted in the movie, Forest Gump. Although we do not know what is inside each chocolate unless we review the chocolate descriptions inside the box, we still go forward and take a chance. We do not evaluate and re-evaluate for too long before putting the chocolate out of it’s misery! 😂 😋 🍫
If only we could see inside the chocolate without needing to review the descriptions. If only we could exist as human beings without needing to constantly review and evaluate our existence. If only life really was as simple as choosing our favourite chocolate out of a box.
‘You walk the line and draw your space the world can be unkind a never-ending January rain
I can get inside your head When everyone else is just giving you promises And I can be your place to go A summer holiday just like the ones we used to know
I can get inside your head I can get inside your head
You thought you had a braver braver skin That funny tale to self you find has grown so paper thin‘
For the last week or so my diary has been written without the track being played at the time. It hasn’t worked well. This morning I reverted back and everything came to life in my earphones, you, life, self-expression. It all returned.
This track is really deep, soulful, the guitar playing sultry sounds in the background. The truth is, unless we are operating deep inside each other’s minds we exist in a superficial bubble. To know ourselves, to truly know and begin to understand one another, we need to get inside each other’s minds. From here we can build on the multiple layers required for deep, meaningful relationships. Inside the ‘mind’ of this beautiful track I can feel your presence, I can hear and visualise you playing your beloved guitar. You found it very easy to get inside the minds of people you connected with. There was no trickery, just simple use of the human ability to apply the law of attraction on a deeper level. That thing called psychology.
I will never forget you. You touched my life in a way that makes forgetting you impossible ☺️🎸🦋❤️
‘Let’s go step by step And brick by brick I’ll carry the weight For you When I’m gone, don’t stop We can stand here all day We won’t move No, not at all’
This is for the warrior in you!
I recall your stories of you not beingafraid to challengepeople and/or in situations that I wouldnever be brave enough to undertake. I saw you in action on my behalf when I would choose to let it go – you would not! This track is aboutyourincredible bravery and your continuous fight againstinjustice. Who on earth visits another country and decides to challenge their norm? Only you 😂☺️ I wish I was brave like you, I really do. You had that gallant stature and outlook in life.
You had that ‘we won’t move’ attitudedeeply embedded in you. You were simply, you and I miss you so much ❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋❤️🦋
‘I’m young and I’m old I’m rich and I’m poor I feel like I’ve been on this earth many times before Once I was a white Gazelle On horse back riding free Searching in the darkness for a piece of me
I can feel this for sure I’ve been here before I can feel this for sure for sure I’ve been here before‘
Indeed it feels like this was not your first visit, neither your last. In your world this was your belief. In mine I call it Deja Vu, something I have experienced more than once. 🦋
The level of wisdom you imparted was extraordinary. This doesn’t mean perfection, but the simple knowledge that life is a collection of moments, mistakes, lessons learned and wisdom gained. I loved the way you accepted and acknowledged this, you were very open in this respect. Nobody is without fault, mankind in its entirety is not flawless. Sometimes it is hard to accept how we see ourselves, acknowledge how others see us, often with devastating consequences. In the deepest of moments we need to ask ourselves, does it really matter? Why should it matter and whom should it matter to? The truth is we must begin with ourselves. Nobody else. It’s that simple. There are some of us who impart wisdom on a frightening level, so wise that you really do ask yourself, is it wisdom or is it Deja Vu?
‘I keep wondering Wondering What I’m gonna do without you And I guess you must be wondering the same thing too So we go on Go on together Living a lie
Because I guess neither one of us Neither one of us wants to be the first to say good-bye’
At times I wondered if you ever felt scared like I did about pursuing our friendship when we knew your prognosis was not positive.
I never told you how terrified I was at times. Screaming inside that I never ever wanted you to go – never. At times I cried my heart out because I knew deep down that this would be inevitable. As inevitable as it was, it was not welcomed nor easy to deal with. In my mind I just pretended that this was not the case even though outwardly I tried my bestto be practical. Relationships like ours do not come around every week, they are a once in a lifetime connection. This connection was like no other I had ever experienced. It felt like it was being directed by something far more superior to mankind. I just cannot explain what I mean. At times I looked at you in complete silence, listening to you but observing every moment with real detail. I did not want to ever forget any part of who you were. A wonderfully charged and animated human being with such love for the world he was visiting. I know you had your own personal fears but I don’t know for sure how you truly felt about knowing you would be leaving, leaving our friendship behind. Both of us had Cancer but with you being in a very different position.
Neither one of us wanted to be the first to say goodbye…❤️🦋❤️